eFiction India eFiction India Vol.02 Issue.09 | Page 27

STORIES 26 SAD ENDINGS     SREEJITA BISWAS                                    A LL LOVE STORIES end sadly… That was what Juana believed. At 39, she seemed rather indifferent towards her unmarried friends as they went berserk trying to get married. And as for her married ones, she had no high regard for them. With every new dawn that greeted her, her scorn grew stronger. She believed that a new day began to remind the unfortunate ones of their bleeding hearts. Each new day began to thrive on heartbreaks, usher in new ideas of dishonesty and distrust, nurture hatred and bitterness, give life to cruelty, to drink from the fresh tears that sprang from the human eye on the slightest provocation. A writer (for hire), Sreejita Biswas’s relationship with words can only be defined as dysfunctional. There are times when they can be woven beautifully into tales of wonder and times, when they can only be defined as a hapless dyslexic disarray. Not that she had never fallen in love; indeed, she had. She had serenaded him in delicious moonlight as he stood abashed at the hostel window. She had whisked him away to a delightful weekend by the beach as he smiled, surprised. She had toiled in the kitchen, perfecting recipes to which he sold his soul. She made love with uninhibited passion, emotions and expertise… and they were swept away. She had loved deeply, tenderly, heartbreakingly. She had loved innumerable times, each time with the same passion, the same honesty and the same fervour; but alas, never had she allowed them to turn into stories with a mind and life of their own, with emotions, with sentimental tentacles overpowering her, squeezing from her eyes droplets of pearls and then, finally, leaving her a broken heap on the floor. She had loved, had felt the unique happenings of each time embed in her mind, felt them stir feelings experienced and unfelt in her heart, felt immense attraction, turned into a possessive woman, jealous and unrelenting, and played the coy mistress, seductive and intriguing. Yes, she had felt it all. She knew every action, every move and every emotion by heart now. As she sat in front of a huge mirror, mechanically dabbing powder on her neck, her face, feelings of disgust overtook her mind. Somewhere in the dimly lit recesses of the alley outside, thunder clapped, loud and menacing. Her hooded light eyes rolled lazily towards the worn couch at the end. He was sprawled all over it, his hairy paunch visible through a tear in the vest. Large sweat stains adorned his shirt which was draped limply over the edge, covering a large rip in the upholstery. A dribble of drool traced its way towards his fleshy jowls, trembling slightly as snores filled the room. He was the only man she had allowed herself to form a concrete connection with. Pale skin, yellow eyes, a betel juice stained mouth, he constantly smelled of perspiration and cigarettes. Repulsive, yet in some perverse manner she loved him. Loved him for all he was worth, perhaps for all he wasn’t. A loafer, he had no income, but expenses he had innumerable. Vices clouded his existence and yet, he was master, and Juana, beautiful, intelligent and rich, was slave. Bound to him with an invisible cord, she worked tediously, to meet his demands, to keep up with her schedules, to earn and to see her hard-earned money be siphoned off systematically, invested in alcohol, drugs and gambling. A liar and a scoundrel, she had found him following her home as she walked back eFiction India | June 2014