DOZ Issue 36 October 2018 - Page 26

now I am working to blend in with the other girls that I am doing jobs with. I am five years older, but I am trying to blend in with high school girls. And that wasn’t so bad, but I think that as I began to grow and mature and I met my husband, and we got married, it was just a mess. There were times when I had to hide my wedding ring; I would take my wedding ring off before I went into an audition because an 18-year-old shouldn’t have a wedding ring on it doesn’t make any sense. And so that was going on, and then all of the travelling was just starting to weigh on me because I was in a different stage in my life. I was ready to just be a little bit more authentic and it’s hard because I was trying to convince myself, this is all you’ve ever known, there’s no reason to stop a bad thing. But I found myself being just a little less available, so I signed a local contract where I wasn’t travelling quite as much, I wasn’t going to New York anymore and from there I decided that because it was local because it was so small that it was very very part time, I probably didn’t even work every week, I then decided to go back to school and get my masters degree. And then my husband and I found out that we were pregnant, and I was just like okay, I think I am ready to move on, I think that I am ready to call it quits, just take a little break and have my baby and just be a wife and a mother and finish my masters degree. So, that’s kind of what happened. I just needed to slow down; I just needed to kind of put some breaks on it because it was taking me away from the life that I had started cultivating for myself and it just came down to making that choice of who I wanted to be. Awesome. So, it there anything that you miss at all? Oh, yes! (She laughs excitedly). There’s so much I miss. I miss being pampered; I miss all the make-up, I miss it all, I do. It’s okay though because the Lord has really opened up doors for me to still have a toe in so I still have opportunities to model obviously not in the same caliber that I was. But sometimes through the social media especially, I still have a photographer reach out to me and say, hey, I am a photographer, I am trying to get published, would « 26 DOZ Magazine October 2018 “ Well, I think the biggest lesson I learnt through modelling is learning how to just love who you are and learning that everybody has something to offer. And I think that’s such a valuable lesson for this generation and for me personally because if you just talk about the different statistics of social media and how celebrities, their platforms, sometimes can create low self- esteem in the quote and unquote average person’s life. you mind working with me? Sometimes I’ll get models, aspiring models reach out to me, especially the mothers, like oh, I know about you from such and such, or I saw you in this magazine, I didn’t realise you were local to the area, my daughter wants to be a model could you maybe do some coaching sessions? So, I am not necessarily in the spotlight anymore but definitely behind the scenes, and I am finding that I am really enjoying that a lot, just helping other people and still being able to do what I love to do. That’s great. So, what skills, experiences and or lessons did you take away from that season of your life which are now required or necessary for this season of your life? Well, I think the biggest lesson I learnt through modelling is learning how to just love who you are and learning that everybody has something to offer. And I think that’s such a valuable lesson for this generation and for me personally because if you just talk about the different statistics of social media and how celebrities, their platforms, sometimes can create low self-esteem in the quote and unquote average person’s life. People are comparing themselves to other people, and it’s just a mess, you know, like where is our identity? Because if we have our identity, we wouldn’t be flicked away by somebody else’s lifestyle, we would celebrate each other instead of competing