DOZ Issue 36 October 2018 - Page 24

modelling professionally and college at the same time which I am very thankful for. I am really thankful that my dad insisted that I finish school. scary sometimes, but it was fun. I really enjoyed it. Okay. So, how did your parents feel about this? You were in college, and this wasn’t something that was part of the plan, it just happened. How did they take this on board? They were okay when I was doing local work, like when I would just go down to Charleston or just do things in Charlotte. But the plan was to get a bachelors and then go get my masters, and move on to a Ph.D. was the plan that we had all kind of decided on and this definitely put a wrench in the plan. I think that they were mostly concerned because of some of the negative things that are sometimes associated with modelling and fashion and so my parents are ministers, and they were really concerned about me not being taken advantage of and me not being able to protect myself from the world in general. But they never told me I couldn’t, but they made it pretty clear that they felt like I could be doing other things with my time, except for my dad he was like, finish your degree, if anything, just finish your degree. So I modelled part-time at first, I didn’t drop out of school, I finished my degree, I learnt how to juggle « 24 DOZ Magazine October 2018 That’s great. So, what are some of the challenges that are generally associated with a modelling career and what did you find most challenging about the career? That’s a good question; I think it is different from person to person because some people have tougher skin than others. I am a very sensitive person; I don’t have a tough interior or exterior, I’m a mushy girl (she laughs). I cry very easily; I take things to heart, my emotions are on my sleeves, so for me, handling the rejection was very challenging. But it’s typical, and I tell people all the time this is the only industry where it’s legal to discriminate. I mean, it is, and if you go to any other career path someone can’t dismiss you because there’s a way you look, right? That’s against the law. But with fashion, it’s part of the culture, so I had to put on some big girl pants. But I guess for me, my security blanket, my protection mechanism was that I just kind of developed a sort of vanity and to the point where it didn’t really matter if I didn’t get the job. I don’t care I am still gorgeous right, and I’ll just get the next one, that was my mentality. I don’t think; I developed it intentionally; I think it was just sometimes you hear yes yes yes and then you hear like fifty nos. And sometimes, because of the industry, there were times when people would just kind of share their opinion of me right in front of me, they didn’t care. I mean I have heard it all. I have heard, oh you’re gorgeous, you’re beautiful. I have heard that I am lanky. I have heard that I wasn’t dark enough. I have heard that I wasn’t light enough. I have heard that they need to put extensions in my hair, I have heard it all, and so I think that over time, I just decided in my own head, well, I don’t care what you say, I’m gorgeous, so if you don’t want me, that’s fine, I’ll go to the next person. So it worked because I didn’t allow it to break my spirit, but then that kind of started pouring into my everyday life and how I carried myself in my personal life, which can be pretty problematic if you can imagine (she