DOZ Issue 29 March 2018 - Page 33

“But he said to me ‘My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” [2 Cor 12:9 ESV] In the power of Jesus Christ, I experienced complete freedom in many areas of slavery and idolatry, but the sin of gluttony remained. Constantly I was on my knees, in tears, over this compulsion to gorge on chocolate and sugar-laden foods. If the Holy Spirit lives in me, why am I still helpless after five years of repentant prayer? And then during bible study one day, I was jolted by these words: The root cause of sin is fear. What am I scared about when it comes to food? And then I realised. Panic accompanied every resolution I made to break this addiction. Unconsciously the dialogue ran: Gorge now, for tomorrow it will be forever never again. Naming this fear changed everything. Ok, God. If this is the root of my gluttony, take this fear. I cannot break this bondage myself. When I wake tomorrow, remove all desire for chocolate, cakes, biscuits, slices, lollies... all of it, every treat I’m addicted to. kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self- control; against such things, there is no law. And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.” Gal 5:22-24 ESV There is a line in the sand God has drawn, so with this liberation has also come responsibility. I am sober in the knowledge that to step over this line would be a deliberate act against God. The only baked goods I can eat are those where dried or fresh fruit, honey, or maple syrup have been used as a natural sweetener. The closest I get to chocolate is raw cocoa added to the mixture. I have the delight of healthy food that satisfies my body’s requirement for sugar, and I savour every mouthful. Christ has crucified the craving of my flesh, so now I live in the incomparable lightness of freedom. At social gatherings, when asked how can I refuse delicious cakes and abstain from chocolate, I have the glorious pleasure to say: “THAT’S a God story let me tell you...” Trace Pezzali is passionate about God and seeks to honour and praise Him in her stories and poetry. She lives in Western Australia, with a lovely hubby and two gorgeous little children. And in the morning, it was just as I’d asked. Temptation simply did not exist anymore. That was in August 2013, sixteen months ago as I write this. My husband’s stockpile of sugar still means that chocolate lives in our fridge, and biscuits and lollies in our pantry; yet I am unaffected by their presence. Not once have my hands reached out for them, no struggle have I endured. It is the strongest testimony I can use to demonstrate that the fruit of the Spirit is never in our effort. Self- control has been given to me. It is in His power alone that God gives us these things: “The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, DOZ Magazine March 2018 33 «