Discovering YOU Magazine October 2018 Issue - Page 44


Lama-Leah has a heart for the broken and hurting and is referred to as “young but wise”. She has blogged multiple times for the Dawson McAlister network as well as her own blog site, In addition, Lama enjoys writing about God’s appointed times and what they mean to her. To contact

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freaking out again, but because I had a realization about how I viewed myself.

My life has been an absolute beautiful mess, and I give the Lord all of the glory. While I like to think that I have been transformed, I have to take steps back periodically and realize that God is still working on me. I have been delivered from a life of darkness, however, as long as I am on this earth I am going to be in a war against the darkness.

"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." ~Ephesians 6:12, NIV.

When my fella told me that I deserved respect because I am a human being, I realized that I had been living in my past.

And living in a state of guilt and shame is not the story of the gospel. I had been pursuing this romantic relationship with the same state of mind that I had when I was a young girl. I was believing that he deserved to be mad at me over small issues and the bottom line was that I was believing that I deserved to be abused

because a few individuals in my past took advantage of me. As we are now several months into our relationship, he has shown me nothing but a pure love and has continuously reminded and taught me that I am not who I was before Christ began my transformation.

It is easy to worship the past, but it is not worth the heartache to be frequently looking back. I have realized that I have a difficult time accepting love from others, however, I can start by truly accepting the love of Christ. I can walk like I am a daughter of the King of Kings, and smile because I know who I am, and who’s I am.

I may struggle with emotional trauma from my childhood for the rest of my life. But I am not defined by anything that can, did, or will happen to me. The only thing that will define me is my name in the book of life. The adversary will try to persuade me otherwise, but in the name of Christ’s blood, I cannot be moved.

“Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken”~ Psalms 62:6, NIV.

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"....,he has shown me nothing but a pure love and has continuously reminded and taught me that I am not who I was before Christ...."