REALITY___________________________________________________________________________________
It’s a push and Pull
BY: Juwairiyyah Jeena
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heartbeat gradually increases, I can hear
it, my airway constricts slightly, my head gets
a little heavy… “You’re in the moment, now
and here,” I remind myself. “You’re on
holiday and that’s all you’re doing right now;
enjoying your holiday, now get out of your
head,” I tell myself again. I continue
reminding myself this until I feel my
heartbeat slow down, I start breathing again
and my head lightens. This continued over
the course of my holiday.
Although! Something was different. Let’s go Instead, I wound up unemployed and my
back a little bit. So, over the past year, I’ve whole plan crumbled. Of course, I was
been more in my head than in the actual frustrated and felt like I was lagging behind
world. Constantly worrying about the things in my timeline. Until I realized two things:
that I never had control over and to be 1) The Almighty has designer plans and he
honest, the worry and anxiety weighed me wanted this for me and 2) this so-called
down in every way possible. Waking up was timeline is just timed by society and does
such a drag, I would sleep for 8 to 9 hours not fit into my life.
and still wake up feeling like a train wreck. You see, somewhere along my path, I
My plan for 2018 was to get a job in my detoured and I needed to find my way
respective field, save up for my future and back, and just when I thought I hit a dead
hopefully settle down by the beginning of end an amazing opportunity was provided
this year. to me. The opportunity to go to
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Madressah!