Canadian Musician July / August 2019 | Page 50

At some point as mu- sicians, students, players, performers, and/or composers, when we’re encouraged to default to conventional wisdom, we start to get our backs up. While becoming good and familiar with the “tried and true” is key to furthering our understand- ing of music and our grasp of the instrument we’ve chosen, some- times that encouragement only deepens the urge to follow our own paths. In many cases, our efforts to carve a different way forward find us in opposition to others, and could seem like a battle – with our teachers, collaborators, or even ourselves. It’s a battle summed up neatly by E.E. Cummings, an American poet who was famously willing to break with tradition and described the difficulty of doing so as follows: “To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else – means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.” For this year’s Keyboard Spe- cial, Canadian Musician sent that quote out to a variety of pianists and keyboardists and asked them to provide some insight, in their own words, about how, when, and why they felt they had to break with convention to establish their own voice. Sarah Slean www.sarahslean.com Stage Essentials: Yamaha grand pia- nos, and when I’m not playing with or- chestras, I use a Nord stage piano. It’s important to remember that an instru- ment is a conduit – it can speak/sing in many different contexts. You don’t have to 50 CANADIAN MUSICIAN Gowan www.gowan.org Stage Essentials: Roland RD-800 Stage Piano I studied classical mainly because, in the early ‘70s, with the level of musicianship in rock – Rick Wakeman and Elton John and Keith Emerson – I realized, “If I’m going to be a piano player, I’ve really got to go at this hard.” It seemed like, more and more, classi- cal music was having an effect on rock. Looking at two songs in particular, “Elea- nor Rigby” by The Beatles and “MacArthur Park,” I could tell these were strongly classically-influenced pieces, which contin- ued into the ‘70s with those more progres- sive rock bands. I knew I wanted to go to the Royal Con- servatory, seeing that Elton John and Rick Wakeman had studied at the Royal Acade- my in the U.K. Going in tandem with that was a straight-up love of rock music and the improvisation it encourages. It became, right from the start, a balancing act. I loved learning rock songs by ear, and then I’d be studying the Bach and Beethoven and Liszt pieces note-for-note, basically being brought into line with a more regimented way of performing. I always loved the balancing act between the two, and when I started getting more serious about it at 17, I left high school to go to the Conservatory full-time for a couple of years. I was always having a bit of a de- bate with my main teacher at the Conser- vatory on the importance of rock music. It become a professional pianist if that’s not your path. In my first year of the piano master class at university, I became restless halfway through. I loved playing Bach and getting better at Rachmaninov, but so many people could already do that better than I ever could. Why devote years of my one and only life to fine-tuning my ability to play very difficult music by other people when I had music of my own that I was ready to write? Classical pianists are high-perfor- was always considered to be disposable, because the pop chart was what dictated what you were supposed to listen to, and last year’s songs were last year’s songs, so there was an idea of them being very temporary. I remember telling my teacher, “Lennon and McCartney, they’re the Bee- thoven of their time.” Their songs had been around nearly 10 years then and he com- pletely dismissed that. I always struggled with that. They were affecting millions of people, and that’s what music is supposed to do. It’s communication. That’s what all these master composers were doing – try- ing to find wide audiences given the tools they had in their period. It was right around then that I thought, “No, you have to be really careful when any- one is thinking they can hold music in a box – that it’s something they can contain.” And that exists just as much in rock, jazz, and blues as in the classical world. You can fool yourself with this elitism or exclusivity of music, but I think the wider you can express that music, the greater the value to it. I think that’s when I realized I wanted all the discipline and all the love and depth of the classical world, but I wanted my music to be relevant now, to today. When I was about 19, just coming out of the Conserva- tory, I realized I had to write my own songs and come up with my own version of every- thing I’d learned. In the next few years, playing clubs ev- ery night of the week and trying new original pieces, I could look at the audience and see how they responded, and took note of the songs they’d ask about after the show. Any indication I had that things were connecting with the audience, that would be the direc- tion I would start going. mance athletes. It’s amazing what they can do, but I knew that I couldn’t offer the world anything new and vital and unique as such; I was too eager to use the instru- ment to write.  Regarding the way my playing has de- veloped, I’ve found the best way to break out of one’s habits is to listen to other musicians with radically different instincts than your own. Keith Jarrett, Tori Amos, Thelonius Monk, Joni Mitchell… They all play so differently and uniquely. Listening is the best education by far.