sometimes
i used to wonder if love
really meant anything
i used to think
it meant sticking by somebody even if they did bad things to you
but the only bad thing you could do
is love me too much
love means
feeling happy when I wake up
knowing that you’re there
and love means knowing
knowing that you care and that when i’m alone and it’s 5 o’clock on the morning and i’m crying on my bathroom floor
that you’d be sad if you could see me
love means seeing
seeing the things about you that nobody else does
like the way your eyes crinkle at the sides when you’re happy
and the way that they sink when you’re not
it means believing
that even when it’s 5 o’clock in the morning and i’m crying on my bathroom floor
it’s believing that you love me
it means that you love the me that i am
and not the me that pretends
to be happy
because love means love and love doesn’t fucking care
about anything
but itself
love means you
and me
always
by Nat White