I am a very driven, career oriented woman. In the immediate aftermath of my son’s death, I lost motivation. The simple act of stepping out of the house and leaving my other children was almost unthinkable. But eventually my drive returned. But I am forever changed. I decided to channel my grief into this magazine and my talent agency, as a way to honor my son – to rise by lifting others. It has given me a renewed sense of purpose and meaning in life.
I am proud of my son and who he was. He left an indelible impression of life, love and strength. He could walk into any room and by his sheer presence, lift the spirits of everyone there. Charles was non-judgmental and sensitive to everyone. If he saw someone was feeling left out, he instinctively went to them to help them feel included. He never hesitated to help anyone in need. He was accepting of everyone he met.
Charles also had an incredible work ethic. He was working his way up the ladder and getting one promotion after another. When necessary he worked two jobs. He was always so appreciative and thankful for any help he was given.
Charles had the soul of an angel. He lived life to the fullest with zest and passion. Like him, I am now moving forward with a passion for helping others through my magazine and talent agency, National Models, LA. These two companies represent my son’s way of living, with passion and heart. Charles did not strive for perfection. Instead he cherished life and devoted himself to helping others. Family, friends and relationships are what mattered to Charles, not material things.
After losing a child, there is no worse pain. I feel I have the strength of my son’s spirit behind me, lifting me up. I do not fear challenge anymore as I have faced the worst challenge of all, seeing your son laying motionless in a coffin.
The Feather is an important section of Belle Vie Magazine because it symbolizes how this magazine was born. I want to touch every mother’s heart and encourage them to share how special their children are whether alive or with them in spirit.
The significance of the emerald green feather with a touch gold, embedded in the symbol of infinity was an inspiration I shared with another mother. Danielle is the mother of Alexis who you will read about on the next page.
Peggy McIntaggart, my dear friend and Director, suggested we create a symbol for mothers who have lost children. We decided on a feather for its symbolism. The emerald green color was chosen because it was Lexi’s favorite color and my son’s birthstone. The infinity symbol was added to reflect that our love for our children is endless.
We are not promised a tomorrow, so live, laugh and love today.
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