T
he simple answer is this: You
follow your Heart!
Now dear ones, this was the
article, glad you read it. Ha ha!
Sounds too simple and yet too
complicated? Let's see about that!
All of my life, or at least for the
past 10 years, I've envisioned
myself as being a therapist. One
of those who just instantly heal
by touch or even without touch.
You know, like Jesus did, “rise up
and walk” kind of thing. I trusted
so much into this vision, that it
actually kept me going through
more than 10 years of classes,
workshops, private specialization
schools, private coaching sessions,
therapies given and applied to my-
self, etc etc while in the meantime
trying to struggle with the day-to-
day's life, you know, just make a
living.
For some periods of time I would
earn enough money just out of
private therapies, coaching ses-
sions and readings, other times I
had to take on another job, to keep
me going. But the true passion re-
mained the art of healing, maybe
not so much at a physical level,
but at a deep emotional and spir-
itual level. I would say acknowl-
edging your true emotions, and
being true to yourself, makes the
true spiritual connection happen –
and as such – the physical healing
occur.
Now as you may figure it out by
yourself, after long periods of
being free and working out of
pleasure, it is not easy to go back
to a 9 to 5 schedule, not for all the
money in the world. With some
personal issues also going on in
the background (a long-distance
relationship breakup, going back
to live with the parents, less and
less income, having to ask for
money to my family, lots of friend-
ships sinking like abandoned
ships and a lot of disappointment
all over), I had to stay tuned to
my own personal values, keep my
faith and my connection with the
divine Source and not give in, not
give up…
9 to 5 was no longer an option for
me, I just had to drink my coffee
(or better yet a nice green smooth-
ie) at home, choose the people I
could work with on a “good vibe”
check, meditate whenever I felt
like, getting the chance to connect
with nature whenever I needed
and so on.
Pressure rising. The pressure from
friends and family was constantly
rising:
“You have to DO something!” (not
as if I wasn't “doing” anything, it
was just not bringing money for
the moment, or I wasn't doing
what they would've done);
“You have to get a REAL job!” (are
you people deaf when I tell you
I die within one month if I get a
standard office job?? that's really
soooo boring and unfulfilling!)
“You got to STOP DREAMING
and come back to Earth!”
OK, that was it! I could take it
just so far! I can take any advice
(or piece of “ personal fear”) from
others, up to the point where I was
told to cut off the dreaming!
In my own personal view,
DREAMING is what keeps us
alive. Dreaming high, dreaming
good dreams, dreaming that you
can reach the top of the mountain
(whatever the “mountain” means
for you) is what I think keeps us
fueling our day-to-day actions, in
order to get there. Dreaming high
is exactly the opposite to buying
into fear. Either your own fear
(oh yeah, it will always be there
whispering from your behind), or
the others' fear of their own lives.
How many of those telling you to
stop dreaming did actually reach
the top of the mountain? Have
you ever wondered about that?
Did any of so full of fear friends
of yours get billionaire or just
so exhilarating happy in his/her
life, that they are actually in the
position to give you advice??? If
not, then why are you buying their
crap?
All in all, I played the deaf frog
and followed the only TRUE
GUIDANCE that ever is worth be-
ing followed: the inner guidance,
the Soul level guidance. I kept
calmly working on the continual
rise of my vibration level, I kept
entertaining myself on the best
vibe I could find around: self-de-
velopment trainings, inspirational
books, just contemplating into my
depth of true value: what would I
really enjoy doing in my life, no ef-
fort taken, for as long as possible?
So I started PLAYING. Yes, you
heard me. Like a well-grown 33
year old adult, I started playing.
Playing with my food, like in-
fants (and developed a cooking
blog actually), playing with colors
(and gave birth to a bunch of nice
drawings and paintings, worth
looking at), playing with words
and my oh-so-known emotions
(after all the years of in-depth
emotion digging I was able to even
write about it, so that others could
also benefit from my experience
and maybe not go through the
same drama again).
In the beginning it wasn't easy
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