Badassery Magazine November 2017 Issue 18 - Page 67

Having a mental illness f*cking blows. Sometimes I can func- tion like a “normal” human being, and sometimes I’m a sobbing mess buried under a tent of blankets, tissues, and my cat. I have chronic depression, Pre-Menstrual Dystrophic Disor- der, PTSD, and Seasonal Af- fective Disorder. I know a lot of other entrepreneurs with mental illness, and it’s important to talk about this. I’ve showed up at meetings not having showered for a week. I’ve had mornings where I’m sui- cidal yet by the afternoon am overjoyed at the abundance of love within my entrepreneurial communities. Sometimes, I have crippling anxiety before a phone call and I have to talk myself through the situation so I don’t just cancel the appointment: It’s okay. It’s just a phone call. She probably won’t even know you’re nervous. Maybe she’s nervous too. Either way, it’s okay. I’m going to breathe. A lot. And get on this phone call And do the damn thing. aspect of my business. If I’m depressed, I sleep too much. I’ve slept through appointments on more than one occasion. When I have racing thoughts, it’s hard for me to focus on the tasks I need to complete. When I’m going through mood swings, I have to limit my workload for the sake of my sanity. Just because some entrepre- neurs live pretty AMAZING lives doesn’t mean their mental illness isn’t there. Part of my personal mission is to start changing the conversation we have about men- tal illness. I want to be LOUD and PROUD about it. Because yes, it sucks, but by being loud and proud and having an arsenal of coping tools, I get to help the next chick struggling. Here are some concrete, action- able ways that you can take care of yourself and cope with your mental illness when you have a business to run. 1. Make a Break in Your Schedule I do know what it’s like to have to cancel meetings because I can’t stop crying. I also know what it’s like to say “f*ck it” to following up with clients because I can’t stop staring at the ceiling. I write them a quick reschedule email and tell myself that I’m a crappy human. It’s ridiculously difficult to run a business when mental illness flares up. The cool thing about being an entrepreneur is that for the most part, I make my own schedule. I have set up my mornings to be exclusively devoted to “me” time and personal development. I work for two hours, take a 30 minute break, then work for another two hours. At that point, I’m usually done for the day un- less I have evening calls. This is my *ideal* schedule. I make sure there’s plenty of flexibility in case I want to catch a yoga class or feel called to do some chakra work. Mental illness affects every 2. Take Mental Health )5хѠՕ́ͥѡɽ)ɕ䁍ɕձ䁍ɕѕ)͍ձЁȁѥձ)ɥȁ$ձͥ䁉)ȁɕ͕ѡЁ丁M)ѥ́$eЁݽɬݡ$͍)ձ͕ѼݽɬQӊé)5䁵хѠɤ)ɥ䁥́䁵͔́)'e4Q! UM%9ML%$e)хɔ'eЁх)ɔ䁉̸ͥAɥ%$)ɕ䁍eЁձЁѽѡȁȁ)ԁЁȁ́'eѼ)ɕ͍ձ9Ё͔'e͕)͠Ё͔хѠ)ɕ%Ё́Ѽхи)%$% ݅́ɥ)ɔѡɔݽձ)Յ́Ёɕ͍ձ)ݽձչх%Ё(əѱ䁅хȁ)Ѽѕ役Ёѥq'e)ͽ䰁Ё'e՝ݥѠ)хѠ1ӊéɕ͍ձ)ȁ}}t(̸QQȁM ɔ)ٕݡ$ٔЁ)є$͕ɔ)ɥɥ丁QЁ䁑)́ѕѼͽٕ)и$Ё䁍хє)Ё䁅хȰɹɅѥ)彝Ёɕаɕȴ)ͽٕЁь)A͔eЁѡѡ)ٕ́䁵ɹ'e)ѡЁЁѽѡȄ$Ѽ)ɕЁѡȁхє)ɹ=HɅѥ彝)9ɕȁЁЀѕ)ɽͽٕ)1ѕ'eٔɕ)!AЁձ5䁉)٥ ɽ(