Badassery Magazine May 2018 Issue 24 - Page 6

Note from the Artistic Director I failed a personality test. Or, at least that is what I thought after getting the results back from taking the Fascination Advantage test on a recommendation from one of Samantha's and my mentors. I was sure I'd answered the questions wrong. The test was too short and all the questions were too vague. It couldn't have possibly gotten to know me well enough to tell me about MY personality. I thought about taking the test again but we were under strict orders on only take the test once. The results said the world sees me as one who executes projects with precision, who is stoic, reserved, and rarely show my innermost thoughts. It said I was highly competitive and always was striving for the best quality, highest level, and most excellent results. It said I can ascertain situations quickly and bring a certain style and grace. Although these qualities may seem awesome from an outside perspective, reading this made my inner critic go wild. All the self doubt, impostor syndrome, and everything else in between came rushing into my head. All I could think was if this was how the world viewed me, it was only a matter of time before everyone was going to find out what a fraud I was. I make mistakes. I forget important things. I keep to myself so much that sometimes people think I'm mad at them. Or worse, that I'm a bitch. I don't know how to do everything. And, you know what? It's OK because I'm not afraid to own it. We are all flawed. We are all human. Knowing that and doing it anyway is what makes you a true badass. Knowing that you are enough exactly how you are is living your true badassery. We all feel like frauds at one time or another. All we can do is embrace the person we are, flaws and all, and show her compassion and love. xoxo, 5 Kathy