Badassery Magazine Issue 11 April 2017 | Page 36

Someday by Mezdulene Bliss I t was 1972, I was 18 and newly married. My husband and I bought a few acres of land in the boonies of Oregon and built a hippy house with our own four hands out of used lumber and windows from old farmhouses. I decorated with an- imal-print bean bag chairs and macramé. For those of you who don’t know what it is, macramé is a craft where you tie knots in hemp string. I made everything from bracelets to curtains to flower pot hangers. One day I bought supplies to make a huge wall-hanging. There was the book of directions, balls of hemp string and large beads. It was going to be epic. never going to get here. I was no longer even remotely interested in macramé and it was time to move on. The box went to Good- will. Then life happened, I had a kid, caught my husband having an affair, got divorced and moved. I packed all the wall-hanging sup- plies in a box and looked forward to making it someday. Every time I moved, I’d look in that box and I’d think, “someday I’m going to make that wall-hanging.” 33 years, a few moves and lots of life changes later, I ran across that box and it hit me. Someday was And then there were the clothes. Someday I was going to fit back into that. You see where I’m going here. 35 That day was a pivotal moment for me. I started looking around at my life and seeing all the ‘someday things.’ I had a shelf in my sewing room stacked floor to ceiling with yards of fabric. Someday I was going to make a dress out of this or a quilt out of that, and someday I’d figure out what to do with that piece over there or someday remember why I bought that one. I could sew from here to kingdom come and never get through all that fabric. I gathered all my someday things, sold some of them and gave the rest of them away. I in- vited my friends and belly dance students and had a big giveaway party. I piled everything on the floor of my studio and people drew numbers. Number one chose an item, then number two and so on. I was so thrilled to get rid of my burden of ‘someday things’ and chuckled to myself as I thought how they were now someone else’s ‘somedays.’ ‘Someday’ I was going to be able to afford to travel. It was a life- time dream of mine and ‘some- day’ it was going to happen. A few months ago, some friends of mine said they were going to Scotland and asked me to go with them. Scotland? I’ve always wanted to travel there. Castles, sacred stone circles and fairies are waiting for me. I didn’t have the money for a trip to Scotland, but I was done with waiting for someday and agreed to go with them on a divinely feminine spir- itual journey. On the same day we met to make plans, another friend invited me to go to Mexico with her, which is another place I’ve always wanted to go. Really? Someday was here! It didn’t just magically arrive, I decided I was