Badassery Magazine December 2017 Issue 19 | Page 66

I went with the flow, until… I
couldn’t go on anymore. I burned
out and had NOTHING to
show for it, well a HUGE pile of
half-finished side-projects!
My reaction? “Oh well… I proba-
bly didn’t want it badly enough”,
or. "I’m just not cut out to exe-
cuting my own ideas…”.
– Oh, hang on a minute… who
said I’m not cut out to do this?!
I don’t know about you, but
when people, or in this case
my internal voice, says to me;
“you’re probably not cut out to
do this shit”, I get pissed off!
Interesting, right?!
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This became THE topic of dis-
cussion with the people around
me. Why can some people be
successful in creating, where
others (including me), fail when
trying… OVER & OVER again?
Most people said something
along the line of, “some people
are just lucky” ... arguing that
successful people are ‘lucky’
to be ‘well connected’; had the
‘right education’; or, came from
money in the first place… The
overarching consensus? ‘Success-
ful people’ are just a ‘different
breed’ to people like us… we can
strive for it, but, most of us will
fail… we’re just not cut out for it…
I went nuts! Interesting emotion,
right?! But... why? I thought I
said I didn’t really want it in the
first place, so how come I cared
so much?
Why? Because I wasn’t going to
‘settle’ with my (then) current
situation... That was NOT going
to be my future – HELL NO!
The next obvious question; how
did I WANT my future to ‘look’?
To be honest, I had absolutely
no idea… ouch! I’d never thought
about it!
My projections of the future were
always just looking a few months
ahead, maybe up to a year (if I
had a vacation planned perhaps);
but, beyond that… NOTHING!