Badassery Magazine December 2017 Issue 19 - Page 65

Before I kick off , I want to ask you a question : do you journal ? Do you know why you do it ? Gratitude ? Legacy ? Life ? Ideas ?

My business is called “ I have so many ideas ”; so I think you can pretty quickly tell that I really DO have SO many ideas … I have ideas coming at me left , right and centre ( even in my sleep )!
I ’ ll be honest with you here , having so many ideas can be both a blessing and a curse . Before I decided that having so many ideas was actually my strength ; I HAT- ED having new ideas . New ideas would distract and confuse me … They ’ d seduce me to abandon my path , or make me sit there and question what I was doing .
I used to try and completely ignore all of the new ideas I had : I wouldn ' t write them down and just kept them in my head . I thought that this approach would mean that they wouldn ’ t distract me ; as they just lived in my head . Putting these new ideas onto paper would mean I was making them ‘ real ’; giving them the potential to manifest themselves … I figured that if I left them in my head I could ignore them – sweep them ‘ under the rug ’, and just carry on . Pretty soon my head was BURSTING with each of these ideas that just couldn ' t be ignored ! I ' d left them somewhere that I thought would let me get through needed to get done .
Yeah right (!!)… In reality , NOTHING got done !
I would spend my days doing ‘ stuff ’; but never getting closer to finishing one of my projects . I was starting to ‘ burn-out ’, my head was a mess ( and it hurt ), and I felt less than awesome ... Like a big fat failure actually ; all because I wasn ' t getting anywhere .
It ’ s not like I lacked either the talent or skill ; I ’ m actually quite a successful freelance designer . I work in a very organised way , getting my assignments done well within the set time . For my clients I could ‘ rise to the occasion ’, and get stuff done ; but … not for MY projects .
Why ? This was killing me … I will spare you the journey of the years I spent in my attempt to try and figure it out … The answer is MUCH more interesting !
Why did I manage to fuck up ALL my personal side-projects , but be super productive for my clients ?
When a client hires me , they hire me to help THEM kick ass in their business ! My clients have their plans and a vision of where their business is going and know HOW I will contribute to this … They have their eye on the prize …!
When I was working on my stuff , I forgot to keep my eye on MY prize … I let my passions ( and the million ideas I had in my head ), lead the way … any which way , but not a amazingly productive way ! Not once did I stop to ask myself , “ where do I want to go ?”, or even , “ am I going in the direction I really WANT to go ?”.
I was just too busy ‘ being busy ’…
Too busy just ‘ taking action ’ ( any action ), without knowing where I was going … Busy thinking that ‘ action ’ was what it took to BE successful : you know , the honest hard work and dedication kind .
ACTION : the one foot in front of the other type , where you just KEEP GOING . As I type this now , I can ’ t believe the madness of my old approach !
Seriously , what the fuck was I thinking ?!
Without keeping an eye on the prize ( your plan or vision ); you are a negatively unconscious target for each individual thought that comes into your head . It ’ s like the Lewis Carroll quote :
Would you tell me , please , which way I ought to go from here ?’ ‘ That depends a good deal on where you want to get to ,’ said the Cat . ‘ I don ’ t much care where —’ said Alice . ‘ Then it doesn ’ t matter which way you go ,’ said the Cat
Without knowing where you want to end up , that ‘ end point ’; every step will take you in a direction to ‘ somewhere ’…
As each new idea will take you somewhere , you also have the voice of your inner-critic or thoughts of self-doubt , which will usually try to take you in a complete different direction …
So ; how do you decide which path to follow ?
I honestly never bothered to stop and ask myself this question .
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