Badassery Magazine April 2018 Issue 23 - Page 23

As we roll into a new year, I think it’s really important for us to acknowledge in our own lives that we don’t always have to have it together. There are moments in our lives that require us to take a step back and re-evaluate our lives and adjust where it’s necessary. It’s hard to be a badass every single day and that’s okay too. Last year was one of the worst and best years of my life. At the beginning of the year, I was in a bad relationship with a narcissistic man who literally sucked the life out of me. Not only that, but I was struggling because I wasn’t living the life that I was meant to. I was doing what I thought I should be doing to bring home the bacon but it wasn’t what I loved and that too was soul-sucking. This was my wakeup call that you only live once and you should be honoring what you love. Most people that know me would describe me as a badass babe because I’ve always gone after what I wanted. When I wanted to learn to kickbox with a real coach, I went after it and I transformed my body and never felt more empowered as a woman. I did the same thing when I wanted to learn how to fly an airplane. So last year came as quite a shock to me when I found myself at the bottom of the barrel emotionally. I wasn’t entirely sure how to even get up from it. I felt like I was starting over even though I wasn’t. There were moments where I felt completely lost. One day I woke up and I realized I wasn’t happy. I wasn’t living the life of my dreams and I did not love myself in any way. I walked away from that man and it was one of the best things I ever did with my life. I chose me and that meant ridding my life of the things that were no longer serving me. Part of that was realizing that book that I was sitting on needed to be published finally. I needed to put myself out there and take some much-needed risks. I had been working on it for years and it was part of who I was. It was a story that I knew needed to be told. I spent a few weeks with my mother, one of the strongest women that I have ever met. That was where I recovered before I sat down and decided what I was going to do with my life. I dusted off that manuscript, my memoir, and experiences that I’ve had in life that I truly believed would help others during their struggles. This past year in October, I finally 22 A s we roll into a new year, I think it’s really important for us to acknowledge in our own lives that we don’t always have to have it together. There are moments in our lives that require us to take a step back and re-eval- uate our lives and adjust where it’s necessary. It’s hard to be a badass every sing RFBFN( 2F7BV"v2RbFRv'7B@&W7BV'2bגƖfRBFR&VvЦrbFRV"v2&B&RЦF6vF&6767F2vƗFW&ǒ7V6VBFRƖfRWB`RBǒFB'WBv27G'VrЦvƖr&V6W6Rv6( BƗfrFRƖfPFBv2VBFv2FpvBFVvB6VB&RFrF'&rRFR&6'WBBv6( @vBfVBBFBFv06V7V6rF2v2גvRЧW6FBRǒƗfR6R@R6VB&R&rvBPfR7BVRFBrRvV@FW67&&RR2&F72&&R&RЦ6W6R( fRv2vRgFW"vBvFVBvVvFVBFV&F𦶖6&vF&V66vV@gFW"BBG&6f&VBג&GBWfW"fVB&RVvW&V@2vFBFR6RFpvVvFVBFV&rFfǐ'R67BV"6R0VFR66FRvVfV@ח6VbBFR&GFbFR&"Ч&VVFǒv6( BVF&Vǐ7W&RrFWfVvWBWg&BऒfVBƖRv27F'FrfW"WfVFVvv6( BFW&RvW&RЦVG2vW&RfVB6WFVǒ7BRFvRWB&VƗV@v6( Bv6( BƗfrFPƖfRbגG&V2BFBBfPח6VbvvƶVBvg&FBBBv2R`FR&W7BFw2WfW"FBvFאƖfR66RRBFBVB&BЦFrגƖfRbFRFw2FBvW&PvW"6W'frR'BbF@v2&VƗrFB&FBv06GFrVVFVBF&RV&Ɨ6V@fǒVVFVBFWBח6VbW@FW&RBFR6RV6VVBЦVB&62B&VVv&r@f"V'2BBv2'Bbvv2Bv27F'FBWpVVFVBF&RFBऒ7VBfWrvVV2vFאFW"RbFR7G&vW7@vVFBfRWfW"WBF@v2vW&R&V6fW&VB&Vf&R6BFvBFV6FVBvBv0vrFFvFגƖfRGW7FV@fbFBW67&BגV"BWW&V6W2FB( fRBƖfRFBG'Vǒ&VƖWfVBvVBVFW'2GW&rFV"7G'VvvW2F07BV"7F&W"fǐ#