As we roll into a new year , I think it ’ s really important for us to acknowledge in our own lives that we don ’ t always have to have it together . There are moments in our lives that require us to take a step back and re-evaluate our lives and adjust where it ’ s necessary . It ’ s hard to be a badass every single day and that ’ s okay too .
Last year was one of the worst and best years of my life . At the beginning of the year , I was in a bad relationship with a narcissistic man who literally sucked the life out of me . Not only that , but I was struggling because I wasn ’ t living the life that I was meant to . I was doing what I thought I should be doing to bring home the bacon but it wasn ’ t what I loved and that too was soul-sucking . This was my wakeup call that you only live once and you should be honoring what you love .
Most people that know me would describe me as a badass babe because I ’ ve always gone after what I wanted . When I wanted to learn to kickbox with a real coach , I went after it and I transformed my body and never felt more empowered as a woman . I did the same thing when I wanted to learn how to fly an airplane . So last year came as quite a shock to me when I found myself at the bottom of the barrel emotionally . I wasn ’ t entirely sure how to even get up from it . I felt like I was starting over even though I wasn ’ t . There were moments where I felt completely lost .
One day I woke up and I realized I wasn ’ t happy . I wasn ’ t living the life of my dreams and I did not love myself in any way . I walked away from that man and it was one of the best things I ever did with my life . I chose me and that meant ridding my life of the things that were no longer serving me . Part of that was realizing that book that I was sitting on needed to be published finally . I needed to put myself out there and take some much-needed risks . I had been working on it for years and it was part of who I was . It was a story that I knew needed to be told .
I spent a few weeks with my mother , one of the strongest women that I have ever met . That was where I recovered before I sat down and decided what I was going to do with my life . I dusted off that manuscript , my memoir , and experiences that I ’ ve had in life that I truly believed would help others during their struggles . This past year in October , I finally
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