Aspire Magazine: Inspiration for a Woman's Soul.(TM) June/July 2018 Aspire Mag Full Issue | Page 34

Learning to
Trust Myself
BY DEBORAH KEVIN
I
sat back in the oversized conference
room chair and swallowed hard, wiping
tears from my cheeks, as my mentor
issued my assignments.
The day had been emotionally grueling.
Each question he’d asked required me
to write in a journal for forty-five minutes.
My hand cramped by the end of the fifth
or sixth question. Most queries had
me sobbing as I wrote. I felt broken.
Devastated. Destroyed.
His only comment during my tear-
soaked moments was, “Keep going.”
The purpose of the exercises was to
strip me of my ego and to force me to
feel the absolute worst things that might
happen in the future as well as to relive
my painful past. As I wrote, tears stained
the pages. As I wrote, I felt come upon
me amazing freedom and lightness. I
would survive these losses just as I’d
survived those in my past. No, I thought.
I won’t survive—I will thrive.
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