Aspire Magazine: Inspiration for a Woman's Soul.(TM) Apr/May 2018 Aspire Magazine Full Issue | Page 23
churned up residue from childhood, from
past relationships, and the stories that made
up my ‘love story’ and the distorted filter that
I viewed love through.
WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU DON’T DEAL
WITH THE ANGER AND BITTERNESS? I never would have uncovered and healed
that story if I hadn’t been broken open. I
felt that I had to dedicate the book to him
because of the growth, powerful healing,
and transformation that I experienced from
having a broken heart.
The anger and bitterness become terrible
poisons within your soul and permeate
every relationship, not just the next partner,
but the rest of your family, your happiness,
and your joy, until you’re so disconnected
from yourself.
YOU DEDICATED YOUR BOOK TO YOUR
EX-HUSBAND, AND THAT MAY SURPRISE
A LOT OF WOMEN. WHY DID YOU MAKE
THIS CHOICE?
I believe that through our shared experience,
he became my greatest teacher, so far. Yes,
he has caused me heartbreak, but through
that pain, I was forced to look within and dig
deep into the unhealed parts of myself. This
WHAT WAS HIS REACTION?
We are on wonderful terms now, and when
he read the dedication, he cried. He said,
“I shudder for the pain that I have caused
with my unconscious behavior for a woman
that was and continues to be nothing but
love and light to my family and me.”
WHEN YOU EMBRACED YOUR WOUNDED
CORE, YOUR DEEPEST FEARS CAME TO
LIGHT. WITHIN THAT, YOU FOUND A
WOMAN WHO STANDS IN THE TRUTH
AND WHOSE GREATEST SOURCE OF
LOVE IS HER OWN BRILLIANT HEART.
WHAT WERE SOME OF THE FEARS THAT
YOU HAD TO FACE ON THIS JOURNEY?
I faced the fear of being alone at my age,
of having made a terrible mistake, and of
not honoring myself in the marriage. I had
this terrible gut feeling that I had brought
this on myself like many women feel after
a betrayal. We ask ourselves, what did I do
to deserve this? What was in me that wasn’t
good enough for my partner?
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was another way to view and experience all
of this. I became aware of my choices, of
how I wanted to deal with betrayal, and how
I wanted to feel a year or two out.