ASMSG Romance Erotica Ezine June 2014 | Page 40

Lowering his arms he slummed into a chair. He looked every bit the soldier he was. He looked exhausted, mentally and physically. I wanted so badly to have his arms around me, but seeing Quintus’ reaction tonight, cemented my belief that he would never allow us to be happy together. There was no point destroying their 1000 year relationship over something that would never last. “Please don’t hate him Cass. You broke his heart and hurt his pride. You can’t expect him to still run around after you like he did.” “Fuck-you Lucius. I never asked for Quintus to do that.” “You didn’t discourage it either.” His square jaw was set, he was waiting for me to challenge what he said. “It wasn’t an ego thing or because I wanted him to run around after me. I truly love him and for a long time I needed him badly. I was only 19 and he was the only person I had in my life besides Declan. He was family to me. I needed that. Seeing my parents ripped apart broke me for a very long time. When they took my magic that hole became a bottomless pit. I was grabbing everything I could to fill that up so I could stop feeling that horrible ache of being alone.” I started to pace the room. It was hard to admit to being a person who had used others, even if I didn’t know I was doing it at the time. When I left Halifax behind I left my best friend. She would have done anything for me. She stuck by me and saved me. I missed her, but she was also so caught up in what happened with my parents and losing my magic that thinking about her was too painful. I think back and I know I used her. I didn’t mean to, but I did.” “I’m not a very good person sometimes. I’ve ended up hurting those who love me so I can feel better. I’m just a broken little girl sometimes, I scream to have someone love me and then I run from it because I know it will only end up hurting me.” I was crying so hard now I couldn’t speak. Only jagged sobs squeezed through gasps of breathe. I had been ashamed of what I had done. Speaking if it was like pulling out an arrow, it hurt keeping it in everyday, but ripping it out was almost too much damage to bare. Lucius walked over and slowly put his strong arms around me, I sunk into him, taking the comfort I knew I didn’t deserve. He smelled of sweat and blood and it spoke to my bizarre life that those two scents gave me comfort. He just held me while I cried and even after when I had no more tears left and no more voice to make a sound. [E1] Paperback Writer – Blood and Loss After two years of being available only in e-book form, my book Blood and Loss is now available in paperback. I couldn’t be more excited. It is truly a dream come true.If you lost everything that made you who you are could you recover? Would you be stronger than before or would you crumble under the mountain of grief? When Cassandra Myles is faced with this question her answer is to do what ever it takes to move on. She rebuilds her life and finds happiness once again. She doesn’t do it alone, she has two very special men in her life, who have been there for her while she has recovered. One is her boss. His name is Quintus and he is a very old and very powerful vampire. He took her under his wing when she needed someone and now she would do anything to repay that debt. The other is her roommate Declan. He is caring, charming, gorgeous and in her eyes perfect in every way except one. Cassandra feels they are meant for each other and Declan feels he is meant for every woman who walks in his bar. Life might not be perfect, but it was filled with possibilities and she was going to meet them with strength, courage and when all else fails a huge dose of sarcasm. Then Quintus comes to her and tells her what was once lost can now be restored. A painful part of her past can be undone. Will this make her life complete or should some things remain buried. This novel contains several erotic scenes that may cause an increased heart rate and other more pleasant side effects. This novel is not meant for a younger reader. 18 + Blood and Redemption the sequel to Blood and Loss is available now. Here are some reviews. I can say I didn’t know this book was going to grab me by the throat in the first 10 pages! But that’s just what it did. And more surprises were waiting. I wasn’t sure if I would like this book but it was a free