Anzzia Magazine 11:2017 - Page 10

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Chad Eric Smith

Actor⎮Dircetor ⎮ Writer & Producer of Rumination

Chad: Yeah, I was just like “that is a good name”. So, I looked it up and there are different definitions. There’s one definition that says: “The action of chewing cud” and then there was another definition about simply being a deep or considered thought about something. But then I found that there was another definition that was more Psychology focused. It said: “Focused attention on the symptoms of one’s distress and on it’s possible causes and consequences, as opposed to its solutions.” It’s similar to worry, right? But it’s like you’re constantly thinking about something over and over again. It’s like compulsive, you know?

Anzzia: Yeah.

Chad: I knew I was suffering from rumination. Because of the break up I was having dreams about her all the time. I was literally thinking about her when I was doing pretty much anything, she was constantly on my mind. To the point where it’s was being very disruptive and making me very sad. So, that’s where the title came from. Then this idea of, man, like wishing I could go back and change things, you know?

Anzzia: Where did you get the idea for your film? You wrote it and directed it yourself, correct?

Chad: Yes. Back in 2015 I was in a relationship that ended, and it caused me a lot of grief. So, really the film was inspired by my own heartbreak.

Anzzia: Okay.

Chad: Through that process of dealing with that I started seeing a therapist to deal with the anxiety and depression. While I was in the therapist’s office one evening I saw this pamphlet about anxiety and depression. I saw this word, ‘rumination’ as a symptom of depression. The word I had never heard of before even though I graduated from college as a Psychology major. So, I was like “Man this is interesting!” For me the word mostly kind of rang out as being cinematic. That would be a good name for a book or a movie you know what I mean?

Anzzia: Yeah! It is a good name!

Interview Photos Provided By: Chad Eric Smith

If I just had a time machine I would go back and do this differently, or that differently. Say this or don’t say that and I think it’s a universal feeling that a lot of people have. But because we can’t go back in time I thought it would be cool to write a story about it.

Anzzia: I really like what you did! So, without giving too much away, can you tell me a little bit about the film?

Chad: One way I describe it to everyone is simply that ‘Rumination’ is about a heart broken man who travels into the past for a second chance at a failed relationship. So, it’s about this man named Elliot who is having dreams about an ex-girlfriend. To him the grief almost feels like death and that was really kind of the theme and the heart of the film for me was that idea of grief...

Anzzia: Of deep loss..

Chad: Yeah, of loss that sense of loss. I mean some people may watch it and think that the way he’s dealing with it is the same way someone would deal with losing a loved one to death, you know?

Anzzia: Yeah.