30dac Magazine Issue 01 September 2014 | Page 107

any either. Respect was given. I wanted freedom of expression. I could submit anything and I wouldn’t be judged harshly. I wanted to be accepted even if and when I wasn’t understood. I wanted a safe place where I could just be without judgment. Judgment of my work was what I wanted, but not of me. Yet, I wanted acknowledgment that it was me who had produced all that I had. I wanted to see which body of work was more appreciated by people. Was it simplicity or complexity?

I sought a lot from the challenge. I received more than what I had bargained for. I live in deep gratitude because of the 30dac. It changed my life. Not the challenge per se, but I owe a lot to the challenge. Otherwise,

I wouldn’t have come to know this today. Most of all though, I owe it to myself for wanting to challenge myself.

I was presented something that was never on my ‘list’. Something I never sought. As a reward, I was granted the opportunity to be proven wrong yet again by being offered Love instead; something of way more value than all that I had wanted.

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