KNOCK DOC
by Sai Murray
Knock knock – [Who’s there?]
Doctor – [Doctor Who?]
Doctor. Who is there between the two of us?
Doctor, who mediates our meeting of minds?
Who prevents you from seeing me?
Doctor. Patient. Patience.
Doc. Tear yourself away from your PC screen.
I want you to feel me doc.
Not through some cold inert instrument
Feel me. With your heart.
Which one of your metal machines
can measure the contents of my head?
X-ray, irradiate, scan my thoughts
Transfer, transmit, to your head, to finger tips
– tip, tap, tap, tip – keypad, to PC screen
Doc. Tears. Divorce head from body
Dissect these intersections.
Tear influences confluences of
patriarchal, capitalist, consumer, colonised racialised existence
Doc,
you take my blood
without ever scratching beneath the surface of my skin
Part 2:
Section 2
of the Mental Health Act.
Take 2
of these pills
Take 2
of these forced injections
Take 2
months on this new improved recommended medication
with slightly less horrific side effects
Take 2
stones of extra blubber
Take 2
years of call-centre minimum wage stagnation
Section – dis-member
Do not re-member who you are,
Who we are meant to be
Do not re-member our connection to earth, life,
Our place within nature which – if we are to do hierarchy –
comes beneath the trees, plants, animals